A Sense of Calm

I went in this morning and felt like I was given the sign that I was making a good and sound decision. "Carla, we so needed you here yesterday. No one knew what was going on and I know you can take care of it this morning." So I clocked in and went straight to the email system and this is what I wrote.


Good Morning "Boss",

I have had a couple of days to reflect upon our conversation from Wednesday and have come to some conclusions. Please understand that I appreciate you coming to talk to me and have taken everything you have said as growing point and not as a reason to be upset. With that said, I have to take a look at things that have factored into my performance as well as how to best deal with them. Unfortunately something in my life is going to have to give and Walgreen's seems to be the one factor in my life that has to change. So I am proposing that I go down to an every other weekend capacity understanding that I may not be able to stay at store 10711. I would like to stay on as I feel like I can still contribute positively, but if for some reason you cannot accommodate this request, please consider this my 2 week notice. (May 7th as my last day.) I have always kept this job as an enjoyable part of my life, but have been very unhappy in my work environment for some time. I hate to lose 15 years of tenure, but have come to this decision as what is best for me and my family during this time.

If you would like to discuss this further, please don't hesitate to call me. I will be at store 10711 until 5pm today and then will be off for the next few days on vacation.

Very Respectfully,
Carla S


I didn't get a response today. I'm sure the boss was busy. But I did feel an overwhelming peace about my decision. And I can hold my head up and know that I am just doing what I need to do to be a better mother and wife.

I'm sure some changes around home will be in order. We will definitely be reworking our budget and making some changes, but it will be worth it. When I asked Ian if he would like it if Mommy didn't go to work anymore I almost cried when he looked up and me and smiled and said, "and you would stay home and be with me and Aaron?" Then when I said "Yes", he came over and gave me a hug and say "Oh good!" Now if that doesn't make me feel better about it all then I don't know what would.

I will still honor the request to work every other weekend if the boss comes back and says that he would like me to stay on. The boys would just spend the day with their daddy since he will be home. So our babysitter usage will go way down.